Soooooo this weekend has been a struggle. I went to see my friend play again and it’s great to hear him play and see him succeeding – but the venues don’t give me much opportunity to meet folks. Then again I’m sure part of that is also me.
I’ve been thinking, constantly about pizza, pasta, junk and it’s very hard to resist. So today – I finally gave in. It’s Sunday and with absolutely nothing to do my brain wouldn’t stop thinking about food. I ended up going to lunch with my friend to catch up on her trip and just in general try to have some fun. I’m realizing I no longer know what that is and I’m struggling to find it.
But even though I gave into my craving, we’ve eaten together there before and I ate the whole pizza roll and this time I only at half – so “healthier than before”. When I got home – I ate some fruit and decided I wouldn’t eat again today. I was also taking a day off from working out because I was realizing that my legs were starting to really ache. So I didn’t walk today – but tomorrow, I’m back to the grind.
I’m also contemplating getting back on dating apps. If the profile is strong enough – perhaps the frauds will leave me alone. I’m gonna work with my friend to get some GOOD profile pics so that maybe I’ll have some luck. I wanna believe I’m not meant to be alone – but who really knows?