Okay – so working out has NEVER been “fun” unless it was Zumba class because that felt like dance class from when I was a kid. But since January I’ve been working with weights and my balance ball, focusing mostly on my upper arms because that’s a HUGE area of self consciousness for me. I kept reading that resistance training was what I really needed so I invested in a Redge Fit and I have to say I’m horribly disappointed.
Don’t misunderstand I see it’s value, but there are no instructions and if you want to use their app, you have to pay for a subscription. I didn’t spend a ton on the equipment, but it’s very frustrating when you’re TRYING to do all the right things and you get something to help you, and instead it makes you feel like NOT working out because it’s so frustrating. I’m trying very hard to fight through it. I’ve been on YouTube trying to find help but either I’m not using the right search parameters or it’s not out there where I can find it. I still walk every morning but my workouts beyond that unfortunately have become weaker.
It’s very hard to stay motivated through frustration. Many days I feel like that’s all I have is frustration. ESPECIALLY, when I step on the scales and it’s UP not down after doing all the hard work I’m doing. Then I start questioning myself, am I doing enough, am I just too lazy, am I just not meant to lose the weight, am I just doing everything wrong.
All of that puts my brain on full – go get the junk you haven’t eaten all year and eat until you feel better. Because that’s what I used to do. I used to mix up cake or cookie dough not to bake something, which I LOVE doing, but to just eat the batter. That’s how I got over 300lbs back in 2009-2010. I lost 120lbs in 2011 but then I met my second husband, he got ill and food became forefront in the mind again and I put maybe half of that back on. (very long story which I’m sure I’ll get into at some point, but fore now that’s “all I have to say about that.”
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